So its a new year and here is my challenge to myself ……..and to you who are reading this. STOP LOOKING AHEAD AND BE IN THE MOMENT. We all know that you constantly hear people say time goes by so slow and kids grow so slow…just kidding. Its insane to me that my firstborn is 19 years old. For the last 10 years of running my own business I give myself a grade of an F for being present in the moment. I love my wife and kids more than anything but when it comes to giving them 100% of my mind I am sad to say it has been a struggle.
I have always been a bit distracted but with the constant stress of how to make payroll and pay the bills and land more work along with everything else is consuming at times. I hate it that my wife can be talking to me and I answer her yep, oh really, wow, and she will say to me you have no idea what I just said. My challenge for myself this year is to make whatever is important to them important to me. If my 13 year old is telling me for 5 minutes about how he won his round in Fortnight I want to REALLY be listening. If my wife is talking to me while I am on my phone looking at a message I want to show her she matters so much more than whatever is on the phone.
I also have realized that I so often am looking towards the future that I lose out on the present. Yes its great to have goals and its great to want to better your life but if it makes you become unsatisfied with what you currently have and where you are currently at then it is a loss of alot more than just your happiness. My mom passed away at 69 years of age and was on oxygen and had alot of health issues as a result of smoking. She was a woman of great faith and truly believed she would get healed of her ailments. The hard part is she struggled with her health for 20 years and was never able to love the moment as she was always waiting for her healing to happen. I feel like in many ways I have done the same with business debt. There is a reason the bible talks negatively about debt. It is a weight that you drag everywhere. It can be consuming when you can’t pay the bills. It makes me sad to know there have been holidays where I have been so consumed with circumstances that I allowed it to rob me of memories.
My prayer for myself and anyone who reads this is that we will TRULY be present and can put down our phones and computers and whatever else is pulling us away from our families and we can be thankful for what we have NOW. Tomorrow is not guaranteed to any of us so lets make the most of today!